It's been ages....

It's been a long long time since I update my blog..
It also means it's been ages since I have the time to sit down & do some self reflection.
To some who roam into my blog unknowingly must really feel that I am a totally boring person :p
To date I have absolutely no pictures up loaded in my blog..
The truth is, I have taken photos of the things that left an impression in my life, it's just that I am no time (same old reason) to up load them. And uploading really takes up a ton lot of time especially since my PC is quite aged already.
I have not been doing credit for my son's blog as well, I have taken quite a number of pictures for him but all yet to be uploaded.. Really need to sit down & do something about..
Or rather to multi task better.
I need to find a way to better way to distribute my energy in order to have them for all my activities. Besides work, I need to make time for my boy who is learning to walk and now happily walking everywhere, my housework which are piling up especially my clothings and my self reflections.. I am lucky I can type this as long as I have access to the internet but as for the pictures.. and of course, I need to keep my son's blog updated as well..
Well, till I manage to juggle all of these then!

Malacca Trip (Part1)

Another reason why I wasn't online was because I went to Malacca on a short trip..
I was pretty excited about this trip actually cos
1) I have never been to Malacca before
2) This is the first trip with both my babies : p

We set off in the morning. Already know that Malacca is a small quiet town so wasn't expecting a lot. I just want to enjoy this little break with my little family of 3
We reach in the afternoon, checked in to our room & then realise that - there is no fridge! normally I wouldn't mind cos I rarely use the fridge.. but this time I did mind cos I brought along my milk.. and I NEED the fridge to store them!
J was so sweet, he went down to the reception to check it out, at first we thought that the fridge was missing & we want to make sure so that they dun push it to use when we check out. So when J came back, he told me that we are to move rooms. I was surprise but didn't ask much. After we settle in, then he tells me that the original room that we have doesn't come with a fridge so he requested for an immediate upgrade, regardless of the cost. Was so touched...
After we settled down, we went out for a walk. As we were driving towards the hotel, we saw that there is a shopping mall nearby and so thought we will go for a walk there. the sun is too scorching hot to go to A Farmosa. O doesn't like wearing a cap so the sun will burn him if we try to walk under the noon sun.
Anyway, the shopping mall is new so not all shops are open. we walked around for a while & then started searching for a place to have coffee.. I had asked J earlier on if we could get the car & drive a little further out cos I already spotted a Old Town Kopitiam when we were driving in. He okayed it at once but luckily for us, we found another Old Town Kopi in the shopping mall and settled for that..
It was then that I realise that I am actually not a shopping person. I prefer to find a nice place with nice ambiance and coffee and I am contented to sit around chatting.. I totally enjoyed the little coffee session I had with J : )

It's been a while....

Haha it's been a while since I update anything on my blog le.. Been concentrating on other things in my life..
After looking at today's date, I suddenly realise that my best friend is going to leave me soon... Well, my best friend happen to be my long time collegue and we are at the same branch. Of course this is not going to be the first time that we will be at different branch but somehow wil still have tht 'I will miss you' kinda feeling..
Well, it means more email from 1st oct onwards...
Will try to be hardworking...

Time Flies

This week really passes quickly.. It's seems just a moment ago when I went to work on Monday and all of a sudden, Friday is on the way already..
Perhaps it's because I was mostly worried about my milk flow to take note of the days slipping by.. But today is a happy day for me.. My flow is finally back to normal.. I guess they sometimes will also throw a bit of tantrum huh..
Well I am glad it is finally back to normal..
But my monster has taken ill though.. Nothing very serious.. A little red eye, a little cough & a little running nose..
But to feed him medicine is a tough job.. My little fella knows when the medicine is coming and will cry like mad.. Breaks my heart but it is for him to get well...
Hope he gets well soon!

Reading

Ha ha I thought I will never pick up amother book again before my baby is 5 yrs old... But I did!
I was suprised at it too..
My niece is currently very into this Stephenie Meyer's books and she graciously lend me hers for reading.
This is a 4 book series.. This is a young adult read, so the story line is more focus on the simple love instead of the adult romance where all the complicated love triangles come into play.
Story is about a girl, Isabella Swan who went to live with her father is a small town. From there she meet a strange boy in her class and the adventure wanders from there. She went on to fall in love with Edward, a vampire. and of course with each book, their love gets tested & becomes stronger..
I find this kinda story refreshing... a step away from the love triangles and complicated love stories..
But my obsessions are making it hard for me..
I have a bad habit.. When I start a book, I must, compelled to finish the book in one seating.. but time is against me and I hated it.. Time always flies when I am reading.. so much so that I don't really read unless I am on the bus and my stop is the last one.. but the agony of not finishing the story... is like an addict being denied of his drug.. like a vampire denied of blood...
But I learnt to stop that feeling.. Self control is the way to freedom :P

I did it again...

Wondering what I did??
Well I made Jimmy made at me again this morning.. We bought chocolates yesterday and I left it in the car. He saw it this morning and made a remark about me not bringing the chocolates back home...
I couldn't be bothered & told him that I will bring the chocolates back to office so that it will not have a chance to melt in his car! And that is it.. he was mad at me.. And this time round I don't know how long it will last..
Actually this unhappiness can be avoided if I had just admit that it's my fault and said sorry, his unhappiness would have dissolved in an instant.. But I am really feeling a little tired to be the one saying sorry all the time..
I know that most of the time I am really the one at fault.. I am, by nature a more blunt and straight person.. Sometimes I can be blur as well and not to mention I have a very quick temper.. As such, there are times when I made some fast hurtful remarks.. After some apologies and 'sai nai-ing' I will be forgiven.. But there are times when I really feel that it is not my fault.. but in order to keep peace, I apologise. In my line of work, if an apology can solve the problem, we won't hesitate to offer it...
So there comes s time when I am really tired of apologising and this morning happens to be one of those times...
Haiz.. I hope his anger would have dissipated by this evening.......

Time Not Enough!!!

This line seems to be coming out of my mouth very often ever since I went back to work. But reflecting the times I spent at home with my baby, I dun seems to have a lot of time on my hands during that period too!
I always have a lot of admiration for those super women who craved out a career for themselves & at the same time handle their domestic matters so well.. Where on earth did they manage to find so much time to do so many things?!?!
Everyone of us have the same 24 hrs.. so why is it that they can accomplish so much in their 24 hrs and I can't?
Of course I know that comparisons of this kind lead to nowhere but I can't help pondering over this some times..
It's like my colleague, Cynthia. She has done a blog for her daughter to record her childhood and she did, so consistently. She also has been nagging at me to do it up for Ocean but I have always told her that I have no time. Then I realise that she too has 24hrs and she too has to take care of her Arielle at night... Our only big difference now is that her Arielle is 1 yr going to 2...
So it all boils down to - choice.
So I want to spend my time watching TV ( when baby is sleeping) or do I want to spend time doing up his blog. My sister asked me, why bother to do so when he don't understand all of this.. I told her now he don't understand but when he grows up, he will! and of course when he is all grown up, I will then hand his blog over to him to take care.. Then he can, when ever he is free, blog down some important things that has happened to him.
The funny thing is that after saying that to her, I found myself being convinced of the explanation..
So while I was bathing just now, I came to a conclusion and decision, I am going to blog for my son religiously till he is able to do it himself. and I am going to strive to be a super woman.. Not in the job field but at least to the people I loved, liked and treasure..
Well that's food for thought the next time!

Oh my god!

Haiz who else but my precious can warrant such a huge reaction..
He was playing in the study, meddling with the cork memo board and suddenly it fell on him.. Now I wasn't too worried about that cos this is not the first time he made the board fall on him. The cork board, as the name mentioned, is made of cork, so it actually doesn't hurt him at all..
What unexpected is that my photo behind the board also fell this time...
I was shocked and quickly went to his rescue.. but too late, the harm is done.. I was so 心痛 to hear his wails...
Now can only pray that this will not leave a scar on his head...

Tired

Can really feel the tiredness these days.. Am I getting old? Or is it just mental fatigue?
Am really looking forward to this Saturday. Finally a rest day! Have been working for the past 2 Saturdays.. Could it be why I am so tired? But I have tried working for 3 Saturdays in a row and I am not this tired..
Just feel like dropping everything and take a rest....